When you get to thinking back, which is a long time for some of us and just last week for others, do you ever think about the first girl that broke your heart when you were a teenager?
You know the one. She ripped that sucker out and stomped it flat.  I'm 51 and I still wonder about her sometimes.  I was just 15 and she was the first girl with whom I ever fell in love.  She had auburn hair and a beautiful smile. Long pretty legs and a nice fanciful lilt of a laugh. I thought that everything was forever then.  I said something wrong, we quarreled and she dumped me.  All those years ago. I tried to apologize but she wouldn't even talk to me.  All I wanted was forgiveness.  I'll probably die one day still wanting her to listen for just a moment. But she won't.

I think about her everyday.
It took me 20 some years to get over her, and now YOU have to bring it up.


Damn you RN45....
And damn you Farrah and your tight little red one piece bathing suit![>(]

mmmm...are the weights still working or have the sturgeon eaten enough that she will float?
just kidding.  I am married to her, she breaks my heart everyday.  And my wallet.

Now weighs 250 lbs.
I really dodged a bullet there.
She doesn't know what a favor she did me.

When you're a teenager, they all break your heart. I didn't feel the sting of genuine loss until later in life.

Ya ... Tina. It's been over 16 years and every once in a while, out of the blue, I have a vivid dream about her. Will never forget her, no matter how much I want to.

Mine was in college, about eight years ago.  I still get an e-mail from her every now and again.

Someone I knew as a co-worker for years became a good friend.  Realized that there was “something more” going on between us (and she did too) but neither of us addressed it.  I fell SERIOUSLY, MADLY and TOTALLY head over heels for her.  By the time I got up enough courage to tell her how I felt it was too late, she had fallen for someone else and was going to leave the state to move in with him.

She and the “other guy” ended up lasting only a year and by then our lives had gone in different directions.

THAT one still hurts 8 years later.  I still think about (and have dreams about her) at least a couple of times a week. [>Q]

I know that it wouldn't have been a long term thing but it would have been one hell of a life altering adventure.

Freshman year of college...Jayda was on the dance team...made a complete fool of me.  More my fault than hers (I was pretty naive).  Oh the stories I could tell of pathetic things I did to try and impress her...

I  recently saw the girl who broke my heart about 23 years ago, thank goodness she did. It was a lot less painfull than being married to that cow now![puke]

Oh yes Michelle......

I loved her like there was no tomorrow.

Finally after 4 years of me pinning away.....she agreed to go with ME to the Christmas Semi Formal!!!!


I spent EVERY CENT TO MY NAME!!

A dozen roses at her door when she came home from school....

An Exotic imported Orchid corsage....

Dinner at the best restaurant in town.

I bought her a gold locket with diamond center as a christmas gift which idiot that I am I gave her at supper ( should have waited till the end of the night.

All went well till we got to the dance.....

She ended up dancing the entire night with BRIAN C!!!!  One of the "cool guys".

It seems that she liked Brian ( who she knew was going Stag to the dance) and wanted to go after him but did not want to have to go to the dance alone!!!!  I made a nice patsy escort for the evening FUCK FUCK FUCK...

I even ended up having to take her home at the end of the night because Brian RODE HIS BICYCLE to add insult to injury!


On the lighter side a few years ago our kids were in the same swim class that I generally took the kids too.

My wife ( also from Highschool days) took them once and got talking....

It seems Michelle is now married to a labourer who cleans septic tanks for a living!! LOL!

She told Sandi ( my wife) that she now thinks she made a BIG BIG mistake that December night all those years ago.......and that she still has the lockette....

The best revenge is living good when those who hurt you look on!

Tanya B., smart, cute, wanted to be friends only and then she moved back to California. I think of her about once a month.

Other than her, I didn't really mind any of the other breakups.

I feel your pain brother...

I married her 15 years later and we now have a 18 month old son.

Oh yeah.
Kim.
Years later after I was married with kids my Dad ran into her.  She never left my hometown.  Dad took care of business.
He told her how I had lived in Europe and was living in Hawaii with my son and wife.  Seeing the world and enjoying life.
She dumped me and dropped out of college to support her soon to be husband.  he spent 7 years going to college on her dime, never graduated, knocked her up, made her fat, and is still living off her.

BWAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA   I WIN.

Can't say a real heartbreak as a teen but later in my mid 20's I lost "The One" so to speak.  She was everything that I ever thought I could have wanted and more.  We were not only a couple but we were buddies too.  We just went together like two sides of a zipper.  Sex with her was like nothing I have ever experienced, ever.  Guess that's what being in love does.  I was too stupid to realize that I needed to grow up, finish college, and make a life with her.  She broke it off, then we saw each other and we went back for another year but I hadn't grown at all.  She left again.  I cried like a baby for a few days.  Went to get some stuff at her house, her mother was in tears too.  Said that my GF was up for 3 days crying over the decisions she had to make.  She was brilliant, beautiful, and very motivated.  I was dragging her down.  She had her goals and a plan to get them, I was lost like I am now.  

I haven't seen her in quite a while.  The last time I did messed me up for a few weeks.  It was at a local club.  I proceeded to get wasted I figured I would just bury myself if she decided to talk to me, which she did.  I could always tell when she was getting sad or upset by her neck and chest flushing.  As I was standing there and she said hi to my drunk ass she started flushing.  I said good to see you and we stared at each other for a few seconds and she turned away and that was 4 years ago.

 Not a day has gone by that I have not thought of her.  She is married now and has twins.  A teacher at a middle school.  I often dream of her.  If I saw her I would probably get sick to my stomach.  I guess I'll never get past her but I know I'll never let myself get that close ever again.  Since then I have left a path of self destructive behavior in relationships past.  Womanized and treated girls as expendable paople.  Someone told me I did that because I was mad at her for leaving and even more mad at myself for losing her.  I have resolved most of those issues over time but some things linger.  I hope that when I die I get to relive my life and change the mistakes I have made. Especially that one.  I often wonder what I would do if she showed up at the door one day and asked me to run off with her.  

Great now I'm depressed.

She was this really Fillipino chick. One of those chicks you wonder, "Why in the hell is she with me?" I was 17 and she was 19. She was the freak of freaks in bed and taught me so much. I used to skip school and spend all day with her. Damn it was fun, I don't really miss her, just the... well you know [;)] It sure broke my heart when the sex-capades ended.

Teresa.

ERRRRRGGG, I HATE DA BITCH!!!!!!

ahhh i feel better now.

The stupid slut couldn't hold a candle to my wife, but she seeps in to my brain every now and then, wack.

Jacqueline Carrie Brown....

Took me almost five years to get over her...

We never would have worked out in the long run, but it was a wonderful seven months, three weeks, and two days.....

yep...Leslie...saw her about a year ago.....i was dating her cousin at the time...we were all at a wedding...she was still as beautiful as ever, until she started talking....geezus what a bitch...i felt sorry for her fiance.  i too dodged a bullet!

The first one is easy.  The last one is the worst.

She really screwed her life up after we split...got knocked up by a real loser a few months after I stopped calling.  Came by a few months later, this time as big as a house.  No kidding.  Anna Nicole Smith big.  The baby's father was being very mean to her, not supporting financially or emotionally.  And she was asking if I would be a surrogate father!!!

As if.  That was enough to make me completely calloused to her.  

After she delivered, she asked if she could come by to show off.  Right.  No way, I had just got my 80 pound German Shepard.  And Lisa didn't know German Shepards are very good with kids.  HA!  Stupid wench.

So what is Lisa doing now?  Daycare. Quite a downgrading career wise.

Yep. I couldn't forget...

I remember how much fun she was and how fucking head over heels stupid I was for that chick. We had been together for 9 months and things were great, although, being a horny teenager I wondered when she might give it up. Well, as it turns out I was glad THAT never happened.

I also remember how awful it felt when she dumped me for some really ugly dickhead on the wrestling team that she'd been out with three times behind my back  who "loved her" more than I did. I moped for a while and it ripped my guts out to see her with him everyday. And she knew it and even relished it, too, as she went out of her way to make sure I saw them together.

After a month of her flaunting it in front of me, I ceased to be hurt and just started hating hell out of that little tart. I resolved to ignore her, but she kept talking to me on occassion and making sure I knew she was around. I was really quite short and not at all friendly, but well, she wasn't the brightest bulb on the tree and never picked up on it.

Well, about a month and a half after finding her "soulmate" she phones me up at midnight or so, crying, and telling me what a mistake she had made. Seems loverboy had only been dating her for the express purpose of making her the "chinese finger prison" for him and his best friend from the wrestling team as they wanted to "double team" them a chick, and they both thought she was pretty hot.

Man, how good it felt to tell her I was seeing someone else (which I was, although not nearly as good looking) and I would NEVER do what she did to me to my GF and hang up on her.

Thing is, as good as that was, the story got even better for me, and I was glad that I'd never "sampled the wares", so to speak.

See, seems she got knocked up that night, not by loverboy, but as it turns out, by #2 on the roster who told anyone who would listen in town that it couldn't have been him 'cause he had only, well, you see he had only put it in her ass.

I think I smiled for a week. She wouldn't even look at me.


Sometimes, I think there is something to this Karma shit.

I saw her at my ten year reunion, and she was still attractive, but chunky, single, and  with a ten year old daughter (who was one of the prettiest and sweetest children I've ever met) and she told me she wondered what might have happened. I told her we were all young and stupid and from looking at her daughter, I'd say she had done well. I really think that made her night.

All's well that ends well, I suppose. Good topic, BTW, brings back alot of memories.

SG

Sabrina...she owns a modeling agency in Miami..crap. I hate you now rn....saw her 2 years ago when she came back for Christmas. She is [b]still[/b] beautiful. [:P]

Glad I did'nt marry her...high maintenance means lots of wasted money. [BD]

Christa Reinhardt...........

I was in love with her from 3rd grade all the way up till 8 th grade. She wouldn't give me the time of day.

Finally at our 8th grade graduation party she and I got together and it was obvious to me then that she really cared.

To bad several weeks before that I found out our family was moving from California to Virginia.

I enjoyed the time we had together but leaving California after finally snagging the girl of my dreams and right before High School really screwed me up.

I still think of Christa several times a week.

kristen

i chased that girl for YEARS, literally.  she was one of my best friend's sister.  i was fucking nuts over that girl, would have done anything for her.  we were always great friends but she never let it go any farther.  she's done nothing but get better with time, more of a knockout than she was back then and on the downhill side of getting her veterinary degee.  i too still think about it, but its fine with me now, i've got a beautiful wife and a great 19 month old son now.  funny how things work themselves out.

My high school sweetheart who dumped me before the end of my first year in college "Because she couldn't stand being without me" (She wanted an easy ride out of her mom's house without having to do anything on her own)

I ran into her in court about a month ago. Of course I was there with the DA to prosecute one of my cases, she was in an orange outfit...well, you get the picture. Seems her boyfriend has a little misunderstanding regarding a meth lab in a shed behind her place. And, she looked like she had been doing meth non-stop since the last time I saw her 23 years ago. She used to be beautiful and now she's a sea-hag.

Like Garth said, Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers...

Been 15 years. I still wonder. And I still miss what we had. And the worse my wife acts, the more I wonder and miss.

I recently ran into the girl that broke my heart.  I was hoping that, at 35, she'd be a fat old hag.
Unfortunately, she was just as beautiful as she'd been in 1984 and age had only improved her.
Sigh.

i wasted the first three years of college on a rotten bitch who had me very fooled

A girl named Erin.  I could post a picture if ya wanted.  We used to spend weekends together in High School camping, in cheap motels in San Antonio and Dallas.

Still trying to get over her.  That was 10 years ago.  Saw her as lately as 3 years ago.  I had a girlfriend.  She was living with some jerk.  She told me I was beautiful and if she hadn't moved away to College we'd be married by now.......

Most beautiful girl in the world.  I should try to find her again.  I know she's still in my hometown and I'm moving back there soon.

Yep, I oughta remember it well, since im young and all. 1 and a half years, and then it looks to me now that she left me for my best friend. But I look back and laugh now, because that guy is having "erection problems", which I have none of; and I am dating an older woman :-p.

Tiffany

Carolyn Knight.  1966.  Woodlawn High.  'Nuff said.

For me it was old MaryJane Rottencrotch in her pretty pink panties

Deanna Day.

Sigh.

Wish I could talk to her one more time.  But, at least I found someone that I have now been married to for 12 years and have 2 wonderful little girls with.

THOSE DAYS ARE OVER!!! ;)

Laura was her name. I made her the center of my life & happiness. I would have given anything to her that I could.

Guess it wasn't enough. Damn near killed me when she put me through the wringer.

I still hope I see her some day.....
[i]stepping off the curb in front of my truck![/i]


[b]BITCH[/b]

Laura. You whore.

Junior year in high school, her name was Jamee. Was a good friend of her sister, but she ending up playing me like a fiddle. Haven't seen her in a couple years, which is a good thing.

Amy, we went out for awhile, pretty solid relationship we ever were guessing we would end up married.  Then one day I bought a gun and it turned into the AK or her.  You can guess who won.  I still miss her and think of her every night, but I also know its a must to have a firearm.

Erika, December 2001.

I still think about her everyday...specially since this shit keeps bringing it up.

I also thought I would forget about her with the next chick I would move on to, but everything about the new girls reminds me of Erika.

Oh well, I see her from time to time, but I just can't bring myself to say anything.

She taught me that women are soulless. They are a scurge on mankind.
The most important lesson she taught me was to choose someone you can live with rather than someone you can't live without. Inevitably, you will have to live without them.

After 14 years, it's still too painful to think about.

[b]WHEREVER YOU ARE, I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU BECAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU! I HATE MYSELF BECAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU! DIE! DIE YOU F*CKING B*TCH! WHORE! C*NT! DIE A SLOW AGONIZING, PAINFUL DEATH! A PLAGUE UPON YOU! A CANCER! AAAAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH![/b]
Call me?

DIE YOU FAT WHORE!

i'm 17, and it was alittle over a year ago, i fell real hard, she didn't... i got hurt... still hurts to this day... and yes, i still like her.....


"Love isn't finding the perfect person, it's finding the imperfect person, perfect"


thats why i still like her....

everytime i look at a picture of her.. well for some reason "somethign gets in my eyes" and they tear up..

man this shits depressing

Chrissy.... Used me as her intellectual whore(for those of you not fmailiar with ladder theory, that would be the guy that the girl uses as the "perosnality" half of the boyfriend, while finding other guys to fufill the physical half). She would always talk to me about her various boyfriends, tore the hell out of me...

Yep, only happened a few yrs ago, but instead of hating her guts I thank her for making me the mean cold hearted bastard I am today. [:D]  

Thanks you BITCH!

Exactly!  She used me abused me and tore my guts out and at first I moped around.  Then I started to hate and got mean. She is dead to me.  I still see her and can look right through her.  It hurts her, she told me, ha!

[red dawn]It keeps me warm.[/red dawn]

AMEN TO THAT ONE!!!  The problem now is that THE BITCH STILL KEEPS COMING OVER TO MY PLACE AND ANNOYING THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!!  Girl can't take a hint that I don't want much of anything to do with her...