I lived fast and loose once, to the Nth degree... Nearly 1/2 of my "friends" from high school are dead -- some of them even killed each other during what would normally be a "minor" argument or squabble when not completely drunk or stoned. ([i]We were a bunch of Coke, Opium and Meth heads![/i])
Several of the ones that are still alive, are either doing LIFE in prison for murder, or have been in/out of prison for armed robbery, drug manufacturing, etc. The list is long, very long!
What I'm saying here is, to do what I did... MOVE and start over while you still have a chance. You need a change of environment and lifestyle. It worked for me before I was ever arrested or worse, and I'm willing to bet a vast number of the others here on the boards as well. If I hadn't voluntarily removed myself from the lifestyle I was in, someone else would have done it for me sooner or later ([i]alive or dead[/i]).
I'm now 34 and have been married 9 years. I have proudly maintained a squeaky clean record for the past 12-13 years, without so much as a parking ticket. Due to the "situation" involving my wife 3 weeks ago, I have also quit drinking. I pride myself on being where I am today, with a very well established Graphics Studio, Class-III & FFL, 6 figure home, etc... If I can do it, anyone can!
My prayers are with you and your friends' family!