Nope, the "light" has always been on for me. My daddy schooled me politically early on. He went thru what you are. He said he should have realized that the party left him long before he left it.
In time the light will get brighter and brighter and you should understand why conservatives feel so rabidly like they feel.
But, you are right in the fact that all republicans are not the same. Some are deeply conservative and some are not.
Are you a Christian? If you are, then you will be more conservative, than just if you are a constitutional conservative.
Listen to Rush Limbaugh, he is a good educator. He is hated by the left because he explains things and how they relate to each other. This is NOT where I got my education, but he might help
you. Some people can never be helped to learn, they refuse to learn, they will not pull their heads out of their asses. Most liberal professors are like this. They refuse to see the light. They
embrace socialism and communism, but cannot point out a country where it works for the people. Most progressives do not understand that globalism just means one world govt. If you only
have one vote in a whole world of votes, how could you hope to have the govt, you think you should have? there are men out there that want to control the entire world. If you google the richest
people in the world, their names will not be on there. How does this happen? How can a man have 1000 times more money than the top ten people that show up combined and not be on that
list? It is called control. How and why do people not believe that a handful of men could control the world? Well for one people make fun of you and say things like tin foil hat B.S.
Nobody wants to believe it, but it is nothing new and they have been getting closer and closer to having it all. Trump is a real problem for them. They can give campaign money to the clintons
and obamas and Mcstains, but not to all They need people to do their bidding. Most politicians sell us out for it. Why do you think they want our guns? To control us. Why is the U.N.so anti
gun? What is the U.N. mainly for? Global govt. Free men have guns..only if they are willing to use them to keep or win back their freedoms. Hopefully Trump will help us keep them at bay.