I realize that you are looking for a relationship, but as long as you have a monkey on your back, you won't find one. Women are like lions, and they can sense weakness and fear. They can smell your desperation like it was skunk spray.
Save up $100 and drive to Nevada. Go into a brothel and pick out the nastiest ugly woman in there, and unload all of your problems. Tell her everything, and then have sex with her. Because she is nasty, you will not feel too guilty about it. When you get back home, you will find that all sorts of women are hot for you. Why this works, I don't know, but it does. Just ask my old roommate.
There have been times when I was in a severe drought. When I finally got a woman, all these other women started coming on to me. I was like, "where were you six months ago when I needed some action". I bet you even hook up with the GAW.