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Training for Jihad
It takes more than practice to turn a man into a marksman. Ask anyone who's ever felt the exhilaration that comes when a thundering cannon of a handgun explodes in his hand. Ask anyone who has ever experienced the rush of expectation and almost Zen-like concentration in that one suspended nanosecond as the invisible bullet travels to its target. To be a true marksman, you almost have to become part of your gun. In a sense, it is an act of surrender.
Surrender.
Nosair savored that word, such a beautiful word, in all its apparent contradictions. Surrender. It is the essence of Islam, the belief that to honor God and all of His creation, one must surrender completely to Islam. Someday, Nosair prayed, the whole world would surrender to Islam, as he had. But in order for that to happen, Nosair had to surrender himself again, to give up that part of himself that wished to control things.
Surrender.
Nosair closed one eye, felt the roughness of the pistol grip against his palm, the weight of the gun in his hand, its mass, its severity, the smooth trigger against his finger. He exhaled slowly and hardly even noticed his finger pulled back on the trigger.
The sharp thunderous crack of the gun echoed through the Calverton shooting range. Ali Mohammed smiled approvingly.
It was the summer of 1989, and for months, Nosair and Ali and some of the other men of the Farouq Mosque on Atlantic Avenue in Brooklyn had been regularly meeting at the Calverton range on Long Island.
In addition to Nosair and Ali, an Army sergeant who made it back to New York from Fort Bragg, N.C., every chance he got, there was Mohammed Salameh and Nidal Ayyad and Mahmud Abuhalima, Mahmud the Red, he was called because of the red baseball cap he wore with the emblem of the National Rifle Association embroidered on the crown. Clement Hampton-El was there as well. He stood out. Unlike the others, who had all been born in Egypt, or in the Palestinian territories, Hampton-El was an American black man who had converted to Islam, but he donned the same uniform as the others, the drab T-shirt with a map of Afghanistan emblazoned on it and a logo that read, "A Muslim to a Muslim is like a brick wall."