adtech,
>>My question is IS THIS NORMAL? Should I seek help? <<
No. Yes.
Seriously, maybe. Look, if you truly could not resist going out to the car, in the middle of the night with no threat present or expected, you might have a bit of a thing going. If this is the first time you had to have a weapon for no reason and it doesn't recur? Forget it. But if you are always uneasy when disarmed, I would be concerned. Here, I can carry 24/7 legally. When I visit home today in Kentucky, I can't take a weapon with me. Will I lose sleep? Nope.
I do admit though the other day I went "shopping" with the wife unit and realized halfway into town (30 minutes frm home) that I had NO firearms in the car. (Been to range, interupted in cleaning, never finished). Had a moment where I thought about going back but decided if today is the day some moron picks to want to kill me - it was just that morons lucky day.