I've always felt like I didn't fit in anywhere. High school was a nightmare for me, and I wouldn't wish that experience on my worst enemy; I was always made fun of and I felt like the ugly ducking.
College was much better, and I made friends that I still talk to today.
I have never had a lot of self-confidence. I am able to feign I do during most social occasions. I have no problem going places on my own, but I'd like to have a bigger social group to pick from. It's hard to find people who give a damn and care about a relationship as much as you do to make an effort to keep in touch and get togther every once in a while.
It has been kind of difficult these past few months. I moved from Ohio to VA knowing a handful of people--all of which don't go out and do anything (I'm not talking skanky clubs, just grabbing a beer, catching a band, shooting some pool). I have managed to snag a boyfriend, but we don't hang out the entire weekend, so when I'm on my own I usually end up pissed off and bored if I don't go out somewhere by myself (which I don't do anymore because I've had a few bad experiences with that, of late).
I hate being shy, but my interests are not that of the general population, so it's hard to meet people to mesh with.