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4/22/2008 10:33:55 PM EDT
Fromm Eugene, OR, of all places!


I first saw it on Blackfive, BTW.
Blogged about it myself, too, but I figured, hey, my parents are the only ones looking at the blog, and this is worth sharing...


Anti-war wounds
By Katie Dyer

For The Register-Guard

Published: April 20, 2008 12:00AM

We’ve marked the end of the fifth year of war in Iraq, and the 4,000th soldier killed there. They hold a peace rally downtown. There are dozens of people there. I’m sure many of them are the same people I see on the street corners — their signs say “Support the troops, not the war.” I watch them with tears in my eyes.

I believe in my heart that the demonstrators are good people. They want what I want: for the war to be over, and for all the soldiers fighting it to come home. They are hopeful, passionate, and they have no idea how much it hurts me to watch.

For some people, the war is a cause. It’s a chant, a picket sign, a march through town. For some it’s a political stance.

But I am the wife of a deployed soldier.

For me, the war is the reason I sleep alone every night. The reason that on most nights I’m not sleeping. It’s the strain in friendships that used to include both me and my husband, Paul. It’s the dinner invitations from other couples that no longer come. It’s learning to ride the tractor and unfreeze the well and remembering to start both cars on a regular basis so the batteries won’t die. It’s doing my chores, and his, and trying not to be lonely at night when the house is too quiet and there’s no one to talk to.

For me, the war is knowing that — best case scenario — these changes will define my life for the next year, and worst case, the changes will be permanent.

I want this war to be over more than anything I’ve ever wanted in my life, but that’s not why I cry. I cry because I am so relieved that Paul isn’t home to see this.

My husband fights this war. He risks his life every day. We have both made sacrifices for it. And to hear them say that it’s “a waste of time,” that it “will never make a difference,” that “we should call the whole thing off” — well, if that’s true, I’m not sure I’ll get out of bed tomorrow morning. There has to be a reason that our family — and thousands of others — are enduring this.

Paul believes that he is making a difference in this world. I have to believe that, too. As an Oregon National Guard wife, there is an unspoken code that assumes you won’t participate in anti-war sentiment, but that’s not what stops me from joining them. As I watch, I feel anger, not kinship.

The fact is, I didn’t really understand war until I married someone who fought it.

When I met Paul, he was already a combat veteran. He had served peacekeeping tours in Egypt and Israel, and tours that were anything but peaceful in Iraq. When he flirted with me, I told him I didn’t date military guys. When I caught him reading “The Art of War,” I thought he was a barbarian. When I met his Army friends, I was disgusted by the glorified battle stories they told. When he quit his civilian job and started wearing a uniform every day, I was proud when people thanked him for his service.When he left for Afghanistan, I quit my job to start a military support business. Sometimes you don’t know how you’ll react to something until you live it.

Lately, I read blogs by soldiers on the front lines. It’s the fastest way I know to be depressed and inspired all in one sitting. One of them writes:

“It’s easy to say we shouldn’t be at war, when you’re not the ‘we.’e_SEnS”

I didn’t become the “we” until Sept. 17, 2006, the day I married Paul, three years into the war in Iraq. And even then, I am only the “we” in the sense that I am joined legally and spiritually with a man who is. I’m the “we” beside the “we.”

The protesters say they support the troops, but not the war. To me, that’s impossible. I spent 10 years as a newscaster. If someone told me they supported newscasters but hated the news and thought it should be taken off the air, how supported would I feel? How can you say to someone, “I support your right to do your job — I even benefit when you do it well — but I think what you do is horrible and wrong and I’m resentful that it’s being done at all”?

How can we support the troops when we’re constantly telling them that what they do every day is wrong and they should be ashamed of doing it? How can we expect them to do their jobs well if by doing their jobs they are carrying out a war that we have labeled immoral? And if they don’t do their jobs well, don’t we all suffer?

Maybe what people really want is for the war to end — but for the protection our troops provide to continue. Without it, they may not have the right to speak out about the war, or the missions that comprise it, or the troops that carry out those missions.

Last summer we were in Ashland for a military ball. All of the soldiers and their dates were staying at the same hotel. When it was time for the party, we emerged from that hotel to a dozen female protesters, dressed in black and lining both sides of the sidewalk. They held hand-made signs about the body count in Iraq. We either had to cross the street, or walk right through them.

Paul and I were holding hands and looking forward to the evening. He was wearing his navy blue dress uniform and I had on a new white dress, strapless with a knee-length ruffled skirt. The air was comfortably warm and the sun had just started to set — the kind of summer evening in Oregon that makes you forget all the rain.

We walked through the protesters. They were silent. So were we. I shook my head in confusion. Why do people assume that if you wear a uniform, you’re in favor of the war? And how could they possibly think that 300 Oregon National Guard soldiers in town for a party had anything to do with planning the war they were protesting? These guys are just cogs in the wheel, following orders and hoping to come home alive.

“You’ll join us when your husband dies,” one of the protesters whispered.

I wheeled around, but felt Paul’s hand tighten sharply around mine before I could open my mouth. We kept walking. That night, we didn’t yet know about the deployment. What I did know was that my husband was a good man, and that neither of us wanted this war.

Paul joined the Army when he was a teenager — seven years before Sept. 11, 2001. He joined before we knew what the world would look like today. He joined because he feels that it is his duty to serve his country.

And thank God. Because what I now understand is this: The future of our country — our honor, our dignity, our freedom — rests on the shoulders of volunteers. Volunteers! And if my husband didn’t go to defend us, who would?

He didn’t have to go. His brother and father didn’t. My brother didn’t. (My father did, during Vietnam, but I never thought once about his service or sacrifice until I married Paul.) All of us could choose to stay home with our families and wait until the terrorists come to find us individually. I’m pretty sure that in Monroe, Ore., population 680, chances are good they never would.

But instead, Paul and thousands of men and women like him left their families, put their lives on hold, and went to meet the terrorists head on. And shouldn’t our reaction to that be solemn, tearful, overwhelming gratitude?

Forget “support.” We owe them our thanks.

There was a time I might have attended a peace rally. But that was before I became an Army wife. Before I understood the things that only become clear when your husband — or son, or brother, or father, or sister, or daughter, or wife, or mother — is the one fighting the war. When you are part of the “we.” When you have lent your loved one to Uncle Sam to fight for all of those who have their loved ones safe at home and out of harm’s way.

And here’s the dirtiest secret of all. I believe there should be mandatory military service for all of us. Maybe if every American served this country, we would all be in it together. We would all ride the wave of hope, fear, pride, panic, uncertainty and unconditional love that comes with being a military family in the middle of a deployment. We could all support each other.

And no one could condemn what my husband does for a living, because their husbands would be serving beside him. Freedom would cost each one of us exactly the same amount — instead of being a gift bestowed by a very few that pay a tremendous price. A gift that so many of us forget to say “thank you” for.

My husband has lost dozens of acquaintances and two very good friends to this war. One died in combat. The other returned safely from his tour of duty, but couldn’t forget the things he had seen. He killed himself a short time later. Paul thinks of the first every time he faces dangers on the battlefield. And he thinks of the second every time he does what he has to do to stay safe. The guilt from both is always with him.

I want my husband to come home. I want the war to be over, and for no other families to have to go through a deployment. But more than that, I want the 4,000 deaths that we have suffered in this war to mean something.

The truth is, I don’t care about life in Iraq or Afghanistan or what happens there. But I care very much that every American soldier who gave his or her life didn’t do it for nothing. I don’t want our country to make any more sacrifices for this war — but I want the sacrifices we have already made to matter. Unfortunately, I can’t see any way to have both.

Copyright © 2007 — The Register-Guard, Eugene, Oregon, USA
4/22/2008 11:40:43 PM EDT
[#1]
She is a good woman...
4/23/2008 3:20:53 AM EDT
[#2]
She gets it.

Imagine how the 3000 families who lost loved ones on 9/11 must feel to see defeatists calling for surrender. Fallen and injured soldiers are heros who, imo, offered their all to stamp out these criminal clerics. I honor their sacrifice and want us to win, in their name, for freedom.
4/23/2008 6:21:25 AM EDT
[#3]

Wow, clear thinking, well said and right on!

4/23/2008 6:44:41 AM EDT
[#4]
Tremendous.
4/23/2008 6:46:41 AM EDT
[#5]



I don’t want our country to make any more sacrifices for this war — but I want the sacrifices we have already made to matter. Unfortunately, I can’t see any way to have both.



I believe that pretty much sums up the majority of Americans opinions on the subject.

I think it must difficult for this lady to have to continually justify to herself the war in Iraq and the sacrifices her family has endured because of it. The ugly comments from some protestors are unconscionable.

Few if any question the legitimacy of our presence in Afghanistan. But we're involved in a clusterfuck in Iraq we should have never gotten into in the first place. We can't just walk away as we have a responsibility to patch things up as best we can before leaving. That means that more sacrifices are going to be made, and, sadly, probably for an end result that will not be worth the overall cost to us. Not sure if I should end that with a or a .
4/23/2008 6:50:18 AM EDT
[#6]
War is more than a business, it is a criminal conspiracy.
4/23/2008 7:07:59 AM EDT
[#7]

Quoted:
She gets it.

Imagine how the 3000 families who lost loved ones on 9/11 must feel to see defeatists calling for surrender. Fallen and injured soldiers are heros who, imo, offered their all to stamp out these criminal clerics. I honor their sacrifice and want us to win, in their name, for freedom.


I didn't hear anyone calling for surrender....and could you reference the law the clerics are breaking?
4/23/2008 7:55:13 AM EDT
[#8]
Very well put.
4/23/2008 7:59:39 AM EDT
[#9]

Quoted:
War is more than a business, it is a criminal conspiracy.
Strat, thoughI respect your opinions and right to express them, I find the timing and location of your post inappropriate, tasteless and rude. Don't you have a military funeral to protest somewhere?
4/23/2008 8:21:02 AM EDT
[#10]

Quoted:

Quoted:
War is more than a business, it is a criminal conspiracy.
Strat, thoughI respect your opinions and right to express them, I find the timing and location of your post inappropriate, tasteless and rude. Don't you have a military funeral to protest somewhere?


My friends names are on  the wall, the difference is there are fifty thousand names there compared to over 4000 from the recent  business transaction.

Do want an equal amount of names on the wall or is it worth offending some people to save lives ?
4/23/2008 8:31:51 AM EDT
[#11]
How is pissing in a thread like this saving lives? Like I said, I respect your (obviously heartfelt) convictions, I would urge you to take your protestations somewhere more apropo. Had you read the blog, you'd most likely be able to comprehend the thrust of it. The spirit of the post appears to be directed at support and concern for the .milspouse and her situation. You, OTOH, seem to be posing as one of the abovementioned "support-the-troops-hate-the-war" people she obviously disdains. The object of war is to win a battle, not to catch the first troop train home.
4/23/2008 8:37:56 AM EDT
[#12]
sigh

politeness, manners, decorum
4/23/2008 8:50:20 AM EDT
[#13]

Quoted:
The object of war is to win a battle, not to catch the first troop train home.


We won every battle in Viet Nam !  
4/23/2008 8:59:09 AM EDT
[#14]
"And thank God. Because what I now understand is this: The future of our country — our honor, our dignity, our freedom — rests on the shoulders of volunteers. Volunteers!"

4/23/2008 12:24:49 PM EDT
[#15]
It's clear that the lady is upset, and she has a right to be, but unfortunatly, in the greater scheme of things, she is wrong.

I feel horrible for what she, her family, and all the other  thousands upon thousands of families have to suffer through because of this war, but the fact that her husband and all of his compatriots are over there fighting dosn't provide justification for being there.

She is letting her emotions over-ride logic.  If this womans husband and all the other soldiers had made the decision to go to Iraq, then she would have more of a point.  But they didn't.  That decision was made by a person who has never been shot at, never been over there with anything less then a full court press of security, and has not seen the things that the soldiers on the ground have.

It always strikes me as funny that nearly every OIF vet will bust on a civvie's opinion because the civvie has never "been there, done that", dosn't know  what it's like to be on the ground doing the job, and has never been shot at.  Yet these same soldiers are willing to march back into hell on the command of a guy who's in the exact same shoes as the civvie with the one exception being that he once won a nationwide popularity contest....


And for clarity of my position, I could care less about the Iraqis.  They have made their own bed.  I don't care how many of them have to die to make sure that every one of our soldiers makes it home alive and in one piece.  I am one of those that does fully and firmly believe that you can support the troops and be opposed to the war.
4/23/2008 12:28:25 PM EDT
[#16]

Quoted:
It's clear that the lady is upset, and she has a right to be, but unfortunatly, in the greater scheme of things, she is wrong.

I feel horrible for what she, her family, and all the other  thousands upon thousands of families have to suffer through because of this war, but the fact that her husband and all of his compatriots are over there fighting dosn't provide justification for being there.

She is letting her emotions over-ride logic.  If this womans husband and all the other soldiers had made the decision to go to Iraq, then she would have more of a point.  But they didn't.  That decision was made by a person who has never been shot at, never been over there with anything less then a full court press of security, and has not seen the things that the soldiers on the ground have.

It always strikes me as funny that nearly every OIF vet will bust on a civvie's opinion because the civvie has never "been there, done that", dosn't know  what it's like to be on the ground doing the job, and has never been shot at.  Yet these same soldiers are willing to march back into hell on the command of a guy who's in the exact same shoes as the civvie with the one exception being that he once won a nationwide popularity contest....


And for clarity of my position, I could care less about the Iraqis.  They have made their own bed.  I don't care how many of them have to die to make sure that every one of our soldiers makes it home alive and in one piece.  I am one of those that does fully and firmly believe that you can support the troops and be opposed to the war.


You make a good point but aren't all of the top military guys advising to stay there? Haven't they 'been there, done that'?
Of course they could just be agreeing with Bush because they have to.
4/23/2008 2:29:15 PM EDT
[#17]

Quoted:
You make a good point but aren't all of the top military guys advising to stay there? Haven't they 'been there, done that'?
Of course they could just be agreeing with Bush because they have to.


They, like that ladys husband, have been given orders to complete a mission.

Strictly militarily, they are tyring to complete their mission as best as they can given the circumstances they have to deal with.

Given that they have been given a mission and told to complete it, they HAVE to believe that they can achieve victory, or else they will be incapable of completing the mission.  No soldier wants to ever think that they are incapable of completing a mission.  They have been trained to believe that they are in fact capable of completing every task, every mission given to them, and that they would not be asked to try somthing that they cannot do.  

Given any military mission of "destroy this, or build that, kill that enemy, or rescue those hostages." they can and will find a way to succeed.  But when the real change that needs to take place is in the hearts and minds of an entire people who don't want to change, there is no military strategy on this planet that can succeed.   No matter what good is done, no matter how much it is shown that our soldiers are there to help, the simple fact that these people don't like us, our help, or our best intentions guarantee that this is an un-achievable objective.

In essence, they are ignoring the fact, or seriously trying to cover up and hide the fact that nothing we do militarily can or will change the national mindset of the people involved.  Unless those people sincerely change their worldview and how they interact with eachother and the world at large, there is not way in hell that we will ever be successfull.

Unfortunatly, no matter how many schools we build, no matter how many people get power to their homes, no matter how many bad guys we kill or how many places we make it safe to walk the streets at night, the moment we are gone, all that we accomplished will go with us.

These people are not ready to grow beyond what they are now, and feeling sorry for the women, children, and whoever isn't going to make us magically able to fix things.

They have to WANT it enough to fight for it.  Having a bunch of iraquis joining their police forces means nothing.  They had it before we got there and they will have some version of it after we are gone...the ones that survive or don't turn corrupt that is.  Simply having a bunch of iraquis who are willing to be cops dosn't make the entire country willing to start off on the right foot and suddenly become a big happy country willing and ready to head into the 21st century and grow as a nation.

That place is fucked ten ways from sunday and no amount of US service members lost, material used, or dollars spent will change it.  If we fail now or if we fail in the future, we will most certianly fail at the objectives that we currently have set, no matter how much hard work our soldiers put into it.  Would it really make any family of a lost soldier feel that much better if we failed later as compared to now?

The question is though, how many more US lives are we willing to sacrifice before we finally realize that we chose an impossible objective?  Yes, I understand the soldiers wanting to put everything they have into accomplishing their objective.  That is the sign of a good soldier and a good person.  Do it right, and do it now.  Not half-assed and when you get around to it.

But the reality is that we can only change the situation while we are there, but no matter how hard we try, we can't change the people.  The people must change themselves.  And for us to assume that they really do want the same things as we do is absurd.  Sure everybody wants "peace", but if you ask, them, their idea of "peace" is a whole hell of a lot different then our idea of peace.

Like that one guy in the movie 'Blackhawk Down' said, "There can be no peace until there is victory."  So long as any side or group of people over there disagree, there will never be peace for them because they are all willing to fight and die to prove that they are "right", and to make everybody else live the same way or believe the same things they do.  They are not like us where they can simply accept others. They have to be "right" and if you're considered "wrong", then you will either change, or die.

I would love to have a situation where our troops could return home under the banner of victory, earned by their hard work, effort, and time.  A victory that stands as is and has a lasting effect on the objective and is held as a shining example of doing the right thing for our country, and for humanity.

But the sad fact is that they (the folks in the middle east) won't let that happen.

As soon as we pull out, regardless of all the good we have done, it will all crumble.  Our victory will be a hollow victory that will soon be forgotten and lost in the chaos and destruction that soon follows.  Those same soldiers who felt like they accomplished somthing will watch the news as Iraq commits national suicide and feel cheated. They will experience the doubt of knowing that every buddy lost, every full measure of effort given, meant nothing in the greater scheme of things.

So, do you want to wait for another 5 years before going through this process and loose countless more American lives, or do you want to just get it over and done with now, keep more good soldiers allive and instead put all this effort, material, and lives towards a better purpose of securing our country and dealing with our domestic needs rather then the needs of millions of people who don't even like us?

I know what I would choose.