Posted: 8/5/2004 6:51:50 PM EDT
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That's how many beats per minute we heard on the ultrasound today. I'm still hearing it in my head. I posted here back in April when my wife and I lost what would have been our first baby. We were devastated but decided to try again as soon as we got the green light. We got that green light the beginning of July and were pregnant again almost immediately. We were nervous but hopeful... until around 7/24. I'll spare you the "girl parts" details but my wife started having some complications. All I could think of was, "Oh, God, not again." We went through hell for nearly two weeks - she was too early on for anything but blood tests and the numbers were "not bad but not where we'd like to see them". I kept getting maybes and shades of gray. All I wanted was yes or now, black or white. I just wanted to know if I should be grieving again or celebrating. Well, I got my black or white today. 171 beats per minute. Size is textbook for a nearly 8-week fetus. I know there aren't any guarantees but I don't think I've ever been so relieved in my life. Or so grateful. So, big thanks to those of you that shared your losses, prayers and good wishes. It worked. 
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