Posted: 9/9/2011 5:58:00 PM EDT
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Im not trolling.
I don't know why but sometimes I get the feeling that I'm not going to live for very long. I have most of my paper work set for my family just in case I die very soon. I don't know what it is. I guess that I'm expecting some bad to happen to me. Honesty, I could care less has long as my family is okay. I love my son and wife. Whatever maybe I need a kick in the ass. |
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How old are you?
Sometimes we get stuck in patterns....and taking a leap of faith and breaking those patterns can be just what the doctor ordered 
Life is an absolutely precious gift...unwrap it! If it helps any....I try to view my life from a 50,000 foot view....from way up there....what do I see? What 'really' matters? Day to day its easy to focus on things that in the grand scheme, shouldn't be our focal point. Get some perspective....its our most important teacher. Good luck....and hang in there. |
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Some times I dread getting old, and I just cannot see myself being an old gray headed grandpa. (26 now)
But then I see some old dude out in town, driving around, smoking a cigar, enjoying life, doing whatever he wants to do on a weekday afternoon and generally just not giving a fuck because HE CAN. That makes me think "hey, maybe that's not a bad gig." If I truly thought that any of these days could be my last I certainly would not be in front of my screen reading arfcom right now. 
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| Also, disregard most of what the assclown peanut gallery has stated. It's your mental health and if you want to be and feel better, seek some help. It's not hard, all you really need to do is raise your hand and the professionals will take it from there. After Iraq my life had fallen apart and it wasn't until years later that I decided enough was enough. People don't need to be combat vets to suffer from PTSD or manic depression or even bipolar disorder. If you'd like, send me a PM and I'll tell you about my experiences and what worked and what didn't. |