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"... My plane may be shot away; But I shall not fall, For I have wings- Wings not of wood or steel or stuff, But wings of a firmer kind- Wings God gave my soul. Thank God for wings." Maj. George E. Preddy, Jr. / Thank You sneadhearn for the bronze
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Prayers to you and your wife, good sir! John and Karla are added to my list.
Sleep well and if I may be so bold, record a message, write a letter and get anything you want off your chest. My mom still has several recordings (voicemails) of my grandfather so she can still hear his voice. God Bless. ~Tom in Idaho |
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Originally Posted By usjet:
We're good with it. She lit up for the first time in days.... doin't think she was so much with the whole program as much as she was so very behind making some sense and use of al this. and just, to add, (I KNOW I will regret this), "HER" name is Karla. 
Pics maybe later, maybe never..... Originally Posted By usjet:
Originally Posted By u-baddog: Make sure she is really fine with It. I was having issues so I was looking at my options and was leaning toward local body donation. Easy peasy, I really didnt care I was looking to make it easy for the wife. I mentioned it to the wife and she was not on board, kinda upset. So I ended up getting what she wanted, side by side burial I prepaid all the details. Ended up getting 2 double plots on the aftermarket ( Searched the Internet, pretty trouble free) and purchasing 2 burial insurance policies from the local undertakers. Tough talk but put her at ease. doin't think she was so much with the whole program as much as she was so very behind making some sense and use of al this. and just, to add, (I KNOW I will regret this), "HER" name is Karla.
Pics maybe later, maybe never..... Whatever decisions are made its a good feeling knowing you've lifted the burden off her and for her it's just one less worry. The less she has to do the better. |
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Shun him"
Shun him"
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Back to work today,all the interruptions while trying to put this all together,
Waiting on a call for an appointment I really don’t want to keep. Don’t know how long I’ll be able. Seems all the symptoms are worse once you’re told why. Put some stuff in the car last night- a few things I want a couple friends to have. Somehow looking at the stack makes you realize “yeah, this is really happening”. Be good to get out. The last 3 days have been filled with talks, calls,emails and text messages. Very tiring. Have a great day all. There’ll be something good in it. John |
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Originally Posted By usjet:
@EdAvilaSr: Don't know what you were thinking when you started this all, bet you never even thought this could happen, that this place could become so important to some, a place to let out more than anyone ever knew, a place someone would take their finish in. But there it is. And thanks for all of it. Thanks. John Sorry to hear you are going through a rough time now but remember that "tough times don't last, but tough people do!" |
Life is like a road. Some lives are long and some short, but you shall surely have many bumps along the way; so make sure you have faith or pure force of character as shock absorbers to ride it out. EdSr 2017
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The woods are lovely, dark and deep, But I have promises to keep, And miles to go before I sleep, And miles to go before I sleep. I don't know why, but your words reminded me of these. I pray you go strong until your appointment comes. I'll be praying for you and Karla. -Pat from Texas |
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Was hard first half of yesterday. Every time the phone rang thought it would be that call.
Call never came, so guess I will have to make it. Got the books done for the first of the month, a friend stopped by, customers came and went. Except for the conversation with my friend, went normal, but didn’t feel that way- have an underlying tension at work I wasn’ t feeling at home, or maybe I just didn’t notice. Mom’s going on 98, has a bit of dementia. Sisses don’t think I should tell her. But what if she wins “Last man standing”? And I talked to her Sunday- she knows somethings up. “How are you? How’s your eye? Are you ok? You sound tired”. So it’s going to cause a problem, but I’ve decided I have to. Told Karla last night I’ll start the conversation with: “Hey Mom, let’s draw straws” Thank again Everyone John |
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And thanks for all the treatment suggestions.
I go on the Internet for information, and it gets overwhelming pretty fast. So far the best combo looks to be eat a keto diet and sit around all day wrecked on some cannabinol compound. Too bad I have a day job. 
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Originally Posted By Traveler:
Prayers offered for you and Karla. I wish you could know it won’t be over. God doesn’t abandon us. Best wishes to you both. Clark And I get to find out, don’t I? Too bad I won’t be able to tell anyone... Well, off to work. John |
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Originally Posted By usjet:
Thanks Clark. And I get to find out, don’t I? Too bad I won’t be able to tell anyone... Well, off to work. John Originally Posted By usjet:
Originally Posted By Traveler:
Prayers offered for you and Karla. I wish you could know it won’t be over. God doesn’t abandon us. Best wishes to you both. Clark And I get to find out, don’t I? Too bad I won’t be able to tell anyone... Well, off to work. John |
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Originally Posted By usjet:
Well, off to work. John I did manage to get some quiet moments outside this morning, when the sprinklers had just run and it was cool and moist. It was a good move for me, as it set me up mentally better than yesterday (Go directly to coffee and desk, do not pass Go). Walter |
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About the avatar: Squares A and B are the same color.
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Originally Posted By usjet:
And I get to find out, don’t I? The truth of the matter is we all have to find out. We are all in this together and no one gets out of here alive. For me, I put my trust in Jesus. I've considered the evidence, looked at the pros and cons and made that decision... pretty late in life. I wish I'd done it earlier but I'm glad I did it even though I waited too long. So now I try not to worry about this sort of thing because I'm confident that much better things await me after I pass. Realistically, I'll most likely be facing death in the next 15 years. Part of me looks forward to it; the other part of me says 'I hope it's delayed as long as possible'. Please don't think I am trying to diminish your pain and fear. I respect your attitude and I hope I can do as well as you are doing when my time comes. |
"These are the times that try men's souls." Thomas Paine, December 23, 1776
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Guess least night was “angry” night. Tried telling myself she’s not angry with me, but yeah she is.
That’s ok- I am too somehow... Sold my hipower and my pre-70 National Match yesterday, so there’s a start to that. Thought it wouldn’t matter at this point, but was hard to see ‘em go. Gave some stuff away and had that talk with a couple friends wh hadn’t heard. Getting real tired of “that talk”. Oh- she got the safe open on the first try. 
Later, John |
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Originally Posted By usjet:
Guess least night was “angry” night. Tried telling myself she’s not angry with me, but yeah she is. That’s ok- I am too somehow... Sold my hipower and my pre-70 National Match yesterday, so there’s a start to that. Thought it wouldn’t matter at this point, but was hard to see ‘em go. Gave some stuff away and had that talk with a couple friends wh hadn’t heard. Getting real tired of “that talk”. Oh- she got the safe open on the first try.
Later, John |
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Originally Posted By usjet:
Guess least night was "angry" night. Tried telling myself she's not angry with me, but yeah she is. That's ok- I am too somehow... Sold my hipower and my pre-70 National Match yesterday, so there's a start to that. Thought it wouldn't matter at this point, but was hard to see 'em go. Gave some stuff away and had that talk with a couple friends wh hadn't heard. Getting real tired of "that talk". Oh- she got the safe open on the first try.
Later, John |
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Originally Posted By usjet:
Thank you guys. Just got a big kiss on the lips. Sure wish I could feel it. Came up with an idea(today has been idea and start the list day), to will my body to the local university med school. Normally they probably think jeeze, Thanks- another old guy to dissect. But the pathology in my head is kind of unusual from what I’ve read, so might make a real difference to someone 5 yrs down the road. Saves $1500,too.......... They take care of cremation, transport and all that. The only disadvantage is you won’t know until thery’re Done- means you have to leave it open for a while. But she’s ok with if I am. And I am... John |
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Sold another Colt yesterday. If my demise were tied to the depletion of my collection, I’d have a long, long time left.
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Spoke with another sis (also with Medical experience) instead of trying to explain it all, I just read her the report- “Oh no, oh my” etc. “Medical” people have tended to have that kind of response, even a couple of my docs. But we had a good talk. Was at work with Karla all day. She says she just wants to spend as much time together as possible. Tuesday (anger day), she’d been off and talking to herself all day. Just doesn’t want to be alone, now or later. I will say this. Time, always is a gift. There are so many things to be done. Instructions for simple things around the house I’ve always done or taken care of. User names and passwords to so many online accounts. Where this or that is. Inventorying important documents (wills, deeds, titles, insurance,directives etc). Who to call for what. Been cancelling email subs all day- no more “daily deals”. And those are just a few. Get your stuff in order. There might not be time, or enough of it. Start today. John |
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Hadn’t heard back from the cancer center(what a concept), so PROMISED I’d call today
Called the # on my phone, a recording let me know the #i had was just to identify that the call had come from somebody somewhere at the university, and to consult the directory for the # for the dept I’m trying to reach. Called, gave my name and the name of the person who called me last week. Got put on hold, with apologies. 10minutes later got apologies and put on hold again. FINALLY got connected with the person who had called, she apologized. And put me on hold. 3 Times...... Eventually, she lets me know that the person who is working on my case is someone else, apologizes, and puts me on hold So while on hold, she finds out that this someone else has talked with Dr so and so, who a week later is waiting on the imaging for review. I explain I’ve had the imaging on a dvd since 2:30 last Thursday and can provide it, but am told they need to get it from the imaging lab direct. In response to my question, at least the Dr has reviewed the report, and after a review of imaging, they’ll call me. 45 minutes and got nothing except an awsome headache. TLDR: If you think I’m gonna spend the rest of my life on hold, listening to crappy music, we need to have a talk.
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Sorry to hear, some people want to die, others want to live. Too bad there isn't a way to take that life they threw away and give it to those that want to live. I'd give you mine if possible.
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I hear there are people on ARF that would do nearly anything to hit 3 pages...  The old puppy thread. |
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