I Love you too Doggie.
Is sad but people are forgetting and some unlucky ones like me, remember and wish that at least the people close to us will care a little more to let us feel the pain once again.
Why is Bear talking like this?
Well this morning, like all the mornings of 09-11 I woke up kind of sad, I knew I will get into my "ritual" of checking the time every minute, and remembering what was going on 4 years ago.
My wife and daughter knowing this, decided to "take me" to the range to distract myself doing some target shooting. We get in the car and I changed the station to the news, my dear wife changes the station to music, I asked her if she would mind listening to the news. And then all hell broke loose, "Don't you get tired of listening to the same thing over and over again?" I know she is trying to shield me from reliving the event. I lost 12 co-workers and 18 more people I knew, I was supposed to be with them!
How can I make her understand, that the only thing I have left that connects me with those people is the pain of knowing they are gone, but that they are so alive in my memory. I do need to re-live that day and remember every face and names of the ones I knew.
We got to the range, we did not talk to each other the whole day and that was OK, I wanted to be left alone with my thoughts. So I went shooting today with my 30 buddies that exist in my memory and we had a great time.