chapper joe and arbud are my only cases of hurting others. gunboards.com, this gunboard, THR, have posititve feedback for me; this AK47.net also has negative feed back from chapper joe and arbud.
There is no reason that will negate hurting others. However, a death, and a stroke in the family in one month may explain my screwed up thinking. If someone is willing to accept me as a buyer in the future. For the first seller, I will take the risk and do a Western Union Cash transfer the same day as recieving a confirmation email from the seller.
This way I have to show trust; no one but me potentialy gets hurt.
FYI, I did apologise to chapper joe and arbud. I offered in cash and in theory some sort of "making it up to them." and, I must stress, I told both that I accepted their negative feedback (In other words, I wasn't "trying to do right so that the negative feedback would be removed.").
While asking for the forgiveness of the Board, I'm thankful for chappper joe being a gentleman with me. I also give permission to arbud to show our correspondence of the last 12 hours, if he cares to do so.
Again, I was wrong, I am sorry. I will not engage in transactions of any sort when a family emergency is taking place. Period.