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1/11/2007 8:22:37 AM EDT
(everything below, including the long quote, is directly from Tweak. I'm just retyping his handwritten letter to you all. Some words I had trouble reading, but I'll do my best. He didn't specify where he wanted it posted, so link at will if you know better than I - OdT)

6JAN07

All,

I want to thank everyone for their well wishes and support over this past year. That support has helped immensely.

Those of you who have expressed regret over not writing needn't be concerned. I know who you are, I know you're out there, and in most cases, I know where you live A heartfelt thank you goes to those who have written. At least one letter came in at a really low point and cheered me up tremendously. Quite a few of the other letters have no doubt kept the mail room censors on their collective toes. Oddly, I have yet to have a letter rejected for gun related content. That could be due to the astonishing number of LEO's who write. It's good to know ya'll don't hold a grudge against cons.

To answer some of the more common questions. Nope, no smokes, no porn, no money ("Chris" takes 75% off the top) not even hookers or blow. The rules for incoming articles are convoluted, contradictory, and cludgy, that's why I put my mom in charge of handling that end of things. If anyone wants to send me something please contact her first. Chances are whatever it is will be contraband or need a form.

I'll tell you, prison (even here at "Prisneyland") isn't anything like you/I've seen represented. The drugs, violence, sex, racism here aren't at any greater levels than I've seen on the outside. If you want an example think "Hogans Heroes" not "Oz". That might explain the 40% recidivism rate. So ya'll can quit asking about the showers now It's not much different than the easiest day of the Garrison Peacetime army. Just do 40 hours of work a week (at $0.34/hr) and you have the rest of the time to yourself for reading, exercising or TV; Comcast basic channels only thank you. All in  all, a big waste of time. It's best expressed in the James Lee Burke Quote I've included.


The unpleasantness of jailhouse life has less to do with confusion and the cacophony of noise that fills the inside of your head twenty-four hours a day than it does with your disconnection from the outside world and the fact that for you time stops when your cell door slams behind you. You make no decisions for yourself. You are strip-searched by a bored turnkey who fits on polyethylene gloves before he pries your buttocks apart, then fingerprinted, photographed, given a cleansing cream and a dirty rag to remove the ink from your hands, spoken to in a toneless voice by people who never address you as an individual or look in to your face as though eye contact would grant you a level of personal identity that you do not deserve. Then you sit. Or lie on the floor. Or try to find anyplace in a crowded cell away from the open toilet that eventually you will use in full view of everyone in the cell. But most of the time you simply wait. No sexual encounters in the shower, no racial beefs with blacks or Mariel's from Castro's prisons whose space is rented for them by the G, no meeting with Damon Runyon street characters or O. Henry safecrackers. Most of the miscreants are hapless and stupid. Out-of-control hardcases are sedated, forced to shower, powdered with disinfectant, and transferred to hospitals. The screws are usually duffers worried about their prostates.
You wait in a vacuum, maybe in a large, colorless room, one more face among the faceless and uneducated and inept and self-pitying, convinced you are not like the others, that it is only bad luck that has put you here. After a while you wonder what it is you are waiting for, then you realize you are thinking about your next meal, a chance to use the toilet or to stand a few moments at a window that looks out upon a tree. One morning you ask somebody which day of the week it is.
That life that used to be yours comes to you only in glimpses, perhaps through a letter, a visitor who sees you out of obligation, or financial notices of foreclosure and repossession. The noise, the envy, the lack of uncomfortable comparisons inside the jail now become a means of forgetting the sense of loss that eats daily at your heart.
If there was ever a viable benchmark to indicate a persons life is unraveling around him, I know of none better than the day a person discovers himself inside the Grey-Bar hotel chain.
"Jolie Blon's Bounce" - James Lee Burke


So, thanks again for all the support. Answering your letters gives me something to do with the rest of the week. Feel free to write or visit (IM 9millie first for the form tho) when you can if the spirit moves you. I know ya'll are out there waiting for me. Aug07 is halfway with work-release hopefully in Nov08. No matter what I'll get out and we'll all catch up. Thanks for everything, it does mean a lot to me. Special thanks to OdT for posting this, Mom & Dad for being there, and 9millie for staying strong - Tweak/Rodger Young/Upright Citizen.
1/11/2007 8:27:12 AM EDT
[#1]
Thanks OdT.
1/11/2007 8:28:42 AM EDT
[#2]
Dare I even ask what transpired...?
1/11/2007 9:03:00 AM EDT
[#3]
Thanks Odt.
1/11/2007 9:33:44 AM EDT
[#4]
Thanks Odt.

Dammit I need to write him.
1/11/2007 9:56:08 AM EDT
[#5]

Quoted:
Dare I even ask what transpired...?

NO. somethings are better left to email and FTF. send a message to 9millie or ODT, they might give you some info. I will say this, Bad things can happen to good people.
1/11/2007 10:36:28 AM EDT
[#6]
Everyone is welcome. The least I could do for any good man.

It was a pleasant suprise to find it included in his last letter.

1/11/2007 1:30:39 PM EDT
[#7]
Thanks D.
1/11/2007 3:45:35 PM EDT
[#8]

NO. somethings are better left to email and FTF. send a message to 9millie or ODT, they might give you some info. I will say this, Bad things can happen to good people.


More than fair enough.
1/11/2007 7:28:42 PM EDT
[#9]
Thank you Odt. He called tonight and I told him you had posted this.
1/13/2007 8:07:56 PM EDT
[#10]
No trouble at all.

If anyone has his mailing address from more than a few months ago, keep in mind there has been a slight change to it, which might delay delivery.

IM me for the new addy update.