This corona lock down is affecting us all. Even the people who are still working every day...
As a Fed LE, my job hasn't changed since all this crap started. But my life certainly has.
Places where I used to go out with my wife have closed. Places where we used to go with friends have closed. Last summer sucked, plain and simple. As someone who has weekend BBQ's for friends and family on a pretty regular basis, I really miss that interaction. Not having been out with friends to a party, a movie, or a comedy show in over a year has had its impact on my family.
I haven't had a real date night with my wife in a year...
My son is still a toddler, so as long as mom is OK, and the park is open to play on the slide, he is good.
But I can't even remember the last time I went out with friends and had a good time.
This is not just you my brother, its hitting us all. And the longer it drags on, the bigger a problem it will be for many people.
Some professional chat time may help, and some time away from work may as well. I know plenty of people having the same depression issues, and for some of them, counseling helped. For other it didn't. But it doesn't mean you can't try.
Be strong brother, we are all in this together, and lets hope the end is on the way!