...it's been tough but I am genuinely happier. I am dating a girl and we hit it off so well it's scary. Wife is dating someone also, weird how we get along now that we are apart. It all hurts but I think its gonna be okay.
This girl I'm seeing is amazing. She is a bit hesitant and fears I will turn back to my wife and leave her hanging in the wind. I have no intentions of that at all. We have been dating since my split, she is waiting for me to file for divorce. She says she cannot give more of herself until certain things(divorce) come to pass. Looks like a whole new world out there. Waiting to start an electrician lineman apprenticeship ,went to a highpower match with the base(USN) rifle team last week, working full-time, money is tight but a fellow AO is getting me a membership here and I haven't felt so independant and happy in years.
I just hope I have the right mindset not to let this girl get away. it's a scary thing to feel this way about someone after so long, she's divorced and a bit bitter but is totally into seeing what can happen as long as I am straight up with her. I let one like her get away when I was in my early 20's. This one is the same type, smart, strong willed, beautiful, independant, and looking for me to be a complement to her and she to I. It's a bit spooky with us right now as I am more open with my feelings and she is more reserved but her feelings shine through more than she likes, and we both bathe in that. Life is getting better.
I wonder where I will be in a year.