My daughter and her boyfriend were just watching this movie.  I get a fucking stomach ache and a burning lump in my throat with 9/11. I'm on the goddam elliptical trying to calm down.

I haven't watched that movie and I doubt I ever will.  I know how I'll react and I don't need that stress.  It's the same reason I won't watch Blackhawk Down again.  I don't need to see it again.

My uncle was at the south tower when it came down and my brother was there two days later doing search and recovery.  I have heard some very haunting and sad stories.  My brother pulled a child out of a buried car stil in a car seat about 5 days in,  he said he looked like a doll,  completely untouched but dead.  He said it just shattered his heart to pieces.  As it would most people.  

I sopped in Shanksville this summer,  it is very eerie.  


I just cant watch the movie.

I saw it in the theater.  When it ended I said some shit I probably shouldn't have said in public.