I geared my entire life to getting my commercial pilot's license and making it to the airline. Everything I did was for the purpose of achieving that goal. I worked, military, deployed, anything for money to pay out of pocket without loans, for flight school. I remained single to make sure nothing got in my way. I mean, not married. When I had the money for flight school, I took a crappy job fueling general aviation aircraft. That led me to my first regular job flying for a skydive company. That got my hours to interview with a regional or three. I was hired by all three and picked one. Unfortunantly I picked the wrong one, Comair and was furloughed after flying on the line a bit. While on furlough, I got married, deployed again to have an income and my wife and I had a baby while I was away. I was offered several regional jobs while deployed, one by the orginal owner of Colgan. I had to reject all offers. 16k-23k a year doesn't take care of a family. Not flying has near put me in a state of depression, after all the time and effort spent making it to the "top". I wish there was a way to get back to it. I miss it terribly.