dont be a cop dude, Im starting to realize that although i love the job and was born for it, the stress and hassle that comes with it isnt worth the reward to me anymore. I still love chasing badguys and occasionally OCCASIONALLY helping an honest law abiding citizen that needs me, but its not worth the stress that comes from worring about getting sued, complained on, written up for minor petty BS rules, micro-managed, ect.
My best friend was shot in the head on a domestic a little over a year ago. His wife remarried and moved on 6 months later and they dismissed the charges on the shooter for insanity a few weeks ago.
The system is broken. Go be a used car salesman for shifty real estate salesman or something where you can afford to make your own hours, be your own boss, feed your family, and sleep reasonably well at night.