As some of you know, I work at the NYS Attorney Gen's office, which is a block from ground zero and looks right down into the pit from our conference room and some of the chiefs' offices.
Well, as more of you know, I was at ground zero on 9/11 and took many pics of the events and happenings around the city as well. Almost like a photo documentary of what it was like to walk from 60th st all the way to ground zero. Changes on my perception of reality occured all along the way, but that's another story.
Anyway, we've had a conference room dedicated to 9/11 grieving, in which we were encouraged to bring mementos and pics and such for people to see how everyone else is coping. It was actually a very nice idea and I really got a lot from being with people that could practically see the faces of the passengers of the jet as they hit.
Well, I brought my photo album in, so people knew I was down there on 9/11 seeing everything from plane parts to disemboweled, beheaded, torched twisted corpses. (Yes, I say that because people do not know the horrors of that day as many of the EMS, FDNY, NYPD, PAPD and other responders do.
Today I was told not to come into the office on 9/11, that I'd be paid for the day and they'd prefer me not to be there!?!?!?! They then told me to go up to the Bronx Sup Ct and work the Rikers calendar. However, it isn't my rotation and I'm not up on the cases AT ALL. I mentioned this and we parted ways.
A couple hours later, I was called into my Bureau Chiefs' office and was told that I shouldn't go to the Riker's calendar either, that I should stay home and work on a project that he's giving me. Granted, its basically a free day off for me, but I was wondering what your takes on this are.
Do they think I'll flip? Do they just want to rest my nerves? (I am edgier and jumped when a truck near me made a loud noise from inside, something that usually doesn't phase me.) Or is there something else at play? Many people from the office aren't coming in either, mainly due to traffic, tourists and other hassles of the day, which also include dread, stress, fear...
Anyway, I thought you'd be interested and maybe you can shed some light with your own insight.
I think I'll end up down there anyway. I had planned on retracing my route to try to remember.