This is hard, really hard. 10 years ago in May. My little doggie was born. She didn't know she was going to come home and be my puppy, best friend, and side kick. But, she was picked by my nephews as a fathers day gift for me. Koda was a full blooded Australian Shepard with one brown eye and one blue eye.
When she showed up. She was a little ball of fur. When she was around 4 months old. She was diagnosed with Parvo. It was a hard two weeks. But, she pulled there. I told my family that if love could keep a dog alive. This was proof.
Before long we where in-separable. She grew up quickly. We took hikes almost daily. She was the only dog that I ever let sleep on my bed with me. Another thing, she was smart. She picked up on things quick. She was also a big goof ball that knew when you needed to be cheered up. She loved to get her hair cut in the summer. She liked the way the clippers felt. Like her own little massage.
If you could describe the perfect dog. That was her. Perfect temperament, smart, loyal, and enjoying life. She set the bar high. She was spayed and never had a liter but, she loved puppies. She wanted to adopt them all.
About a year ago. I noticed that she was starting to slow down. She recently started to show her age in her face as well. I slowed down on the daily walks and made them shorter. Hitting only to her favorite spots. I also started to prepare myself for that day that would someday come. When we would say our good bye's. I figured I had another two years at least with her.
Well, yesterday(Thursday). I was sitting talking to my mother and father. She was laying at my mothers feet, sleeping from being outside all night. I would let her run around my
parents fenced in yard with the other dogs my parents had. It was around 3:00 pm local. Just my mother and I where in the living room at the time. When she suddenly tried to
sit up. she bumped her head on my mothers chair. She then got to feet very wobbly and walked around the back of the couch. I noticed something wasn't right from the get go. I ran around the coffee table to see her disappear behind the couch. I reversed and cut her off on the other side of the couch just in time to see her collapse. She let out two muffled whimpers and began breathing rapidly. I told my mom to get in the car and start it. I ran to phone called the vet and told them they had a patient coming in code. I then ran to the office got my father.
We had her loaded and headed to the vet in less than five minutes. The drive to the vet was roughly 10 minutes. The vet was waiting in the parking lot for us. They called her in the parking lot at the vet office.
I just didn't call her Koda. I had a few names for her like "Koda Bear", "Cuties", and "Cutie Bears." She seamed to really get her little tail moving when called "Cuties" as if she knew the meaning.
I buried her in the NE corner of my parents place. My father and a good friend came over and helped me dig a hole. Placed a towel under and one of her favorite blankets from
her dog house over her. I then tore a pallet down and placed the planks over top of her. I kept her collar and all her dog tags.
I have lost family dogs before. But, She was MY dog. losing her hurts a lot more than I imagined. I cried like a baby yesterday when I was alone. Digging in 105 deg heat didn't
help either. I got a headache, nausea, and a short lived fever. I over worked in the heat and started drinking water to late.
I have always been amazed at how a dog will give it's owner un-conditional love. I was always there for her. One time we where hiking and out of no where. She bolts out of the
bushes behind me where she had last seen me with three big feral dogs on her tail. They looked to end her. I charged into that melee with nothing but a over whelming urge to
save my dog. Two dogs saw me and wanted nothing to do with the fight when they saw me charging in. The last barely saw me in time and despite my best effort dodged my
grasp. The look on her face was price-less. It was "Oh NOW you show up!". "Where were you a minute ago when I had them cornered!"
What hurts so much is that I was there. I did what I could as fast as I could. Yet, this time. I feel like I failed her. I didn't know what was happening, a stroke? a seizure? heart
attack? I keep thinking that maybe if I had given her CPR she would have made it. I was thinking seizure, or hoping seizure. Deep down I was hoping it wasn't a heart attack.
Vet wanted to know if I wanted to know for sure what took her. I told her it was ok. she was gone. nothing can change that.
Her dog age was 66 to 68 depending on which website you use.
Now I sit here typing this with a empty spot by my feet. every time I see something of hers, it gets dusty. I'll miss her.
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