I did my own divorce in NC... It was pretty cheap considering......
But,,,,,
We had no Kids,, and hated each other. And had already sold our house.... So there wasn't much left to fight about. The beauty of it is that if you settle everything,, or make her think you have,, untill the hearing,,, and can stand to keep nodding "yes Bitch,," It's really pretty easy. I did mine in Davidson County with documents I copied from the public library...
I had to take a few afternoons off of work to go to the courthouse, and a morning for the actual hearing, it was really easy.
I feel for you man,, I understand. Mine was no fly by night kind of thing,. I was with that (bitch) chick from the time I was 16 untill I was 27. Almost half of my life...
If you still care about the emotional side of it,,, only time can make that better. But you have to reach inside and get cold to make sure you don't come out ruined from it.
Financially and emotionally.
All jokes aside,,, you might be on the edge man......
Make sure you take a step back and remember that it's OK to be really fuc**** selfish about the rest of your life.
This too shall pass. (even though it friggin sucks for everyone...)
If you want to have a beer and some chit chat sometime IM me,, or hell,,, IM everyone in this thread for that matter. Nothing beats hanging out with people who understand.