I was just killing some time and surfing the net and actually found an [url=http://www.msha.gov/FATALS/1998/FTL98C25.HTM]incident report [/url] on the next to last call I ever ran! (The last was about an hour later and was a code blue in a SNF) Talk about a weird feeling. I was on that scene from about 5:45 (first truck) to about 1:30 when I left for the hospital. I found a cold side to myself that day that I never want to see again (I thought and said things while we waited that day that no caregiver should ever say or feel), after that I decided I was too young to be as jaded as I was and have no more remorse than I did, so I quit. I still occasional visit the guys I used to work with while at they are at work (they were my second family) and I am getting ready to instruct an EMT-B class. Will I ever run again? I doubt it. Do I miss it? Everyday!
Jake
[red]Those who can, run. Those who can't, teach.[/red]