I am assuming that the duckbill you got from Walter Keller in Florida is an original, is the one from Total Silence, Inc an exact duplicate??
I really like the looks of them duckbills!!!
The only hope you have is to accept the fact that you are already dead. And the sooner you accept that, the sooner you will be able to function as a soldier is supposed to function, without mercy, without compassion, without remorse.