Update :
well guys i had a checkup this week with my oncologist that performed my bone marrow transplant 4.5 years ago, and she said that I'm doing great.. as far as the cancer is concerned.. granted there are side effects from the cancer, and the medications but she was even considering taking me off of my daily chemo to see how i am able to do without it, since the dosage is now so small that there is no data to say it does any good or bad at its current dosage. we had to have it reduced about 6 months ago because it was effecting my liver negatively since I've been on it for so long. the physical changes to my bone structure however are permanent, as is the changes to my lung size and capacity, which unfortunately may mean that I'm stuck on oxygen for the foreseeable future. so I don't know.. Lately I've had good news and that's great.. but sometimes I'll tell you, i get stuck in my own head, and well, that can be a bad place. A little being down, due to the physical changes permanence and what not. I miss being able to do things i used to. but i try to remind myself that I have it not near as bad as many, and i have so very many folks here, and else where pulling for me and rooting for me, and praying for me. It can be hard at times, but the biggest positive i have is Gods blessing and his help at having made me strong enough to make it through all that I've been through. Even if i don't understand the reasons in it all, I'm thankful to be here still, and I'm thankful for His blessings, and all of you who have supported me over the years. Especially PSA, Jamin, Josiah, and the rest of the PSA Family and of course D16man. Thanks guys. Anyways, that's the update for now. I hope everyone is doing well.