I have read this post a few time's already, & like many others I am hesitant to reply honestly with the worst thing I ever did. There are so many. I have given this much thought & searched my hart for the answer, & when I found it, I again searched my hart for the courage to tell on myself for the worst.
This is something that I have come to accept about my self, & I hope I don't shock you all, as I would hate to loose friends over what I'm about to admit. Some of you will hate me after I confess, some will respect me, & some will laugh at me. I accept that, & bare my soul to the truth.
Wow,.... this is not easy to admit, & I will tell you now I am not proud in any way for what I have done. It has however changed my life forever.
I can't believe I'm putting this in print for so many eyes to see, but here goes. I will do my best to remain accurate in what I say, & I thank you in advance for not judging me to harshly.
This is what I did. God help me. I was involved in, & had a big hand in a murder. I in fact was the trigger man in essence. The person had done nothing wrong himself, & certainly didn't deserve to be so ruthlessly murdered. He was just in the wrong place at the write time. I think he knew it was coming, but seemed to accept it & he didn't attempt to fight back. He simply looked at me as if it was alright with him & let it happen.
I can't say that I am 100% sorry it happened, but very close to 100%. At the time it was really him or me that would end up dying, & my nature being what it was then, I figure it was better for him to die than for me, & I guess he did to because it wouldn't have ended the same if he had chosen to fight back. He was a much stronger man than myself. Sometimes when I think about it, I cry. What I did was so awful,& so wrong, that I can barely stand myself, & the way I behave. I could give you all a lot of excuses for what I did, but it doesn't matter anymore, & no excuse would release me from the truth of what I have done. I have never been arrested for it, & likely never will. I won't face a death sentence for it, but I'm sure some will eventually be caught, & pay for the crime, I know this to be a fact. I have been convicted in my hart of the crime, & I have repented for it. It will never cost me in the way of punishment because I have repented of it. Many of you know who I murdered, many of you would admit to having had a hand in it to. Many will not acknowledge he ever exsisted. the man I murdered's name is ,... Jesus Christ. The son of the most high God. [:D]